Corynn Goldie5 days agoI’m 25M and have been in a relationship with my girlfriend (23F) for almost a year now. When we first started talking, we clicked right away, and we both fell in love quickly. She is very expressive, and I can tell she loves me more than I love her. Despite the differences, we are generally happy together. However, something happened recently that has shaken me. I found a conversation between her and her guy best friend, which I felt was inappropriate—it appeared to be sexting. He’s a classmate of hers, and seeing those messages really hurt me. I confronted her about it, and she was very emotional, explaining that it wasn’t sexting but something else. She put a lot of effort into justifying the situation, even deleting their old messages to show she cared. Still, I couldn’t accept her explanation because, to me, transparency is vital for trust. While I have a female best friend who I've known for years and would never talk to inappropriately, I still didn’t want to give up on my girlfriend. I needed time to process and decided to give our relationship another chance. Since then, things have been fine, but we’ve had small arguments, like most couples do. She can be short-tempered and gets into arguments with others, but she’s never directed that behavior at me. I’m more of a calm communicator and prefer to work through issues without fighting. Despite this, whenever she mentions her guy best friend, my mind reverts to the incident. I tend to overthink and imagine worst-case scenarios, which keeps me on edge and unsettled. I thought I had moved past my insecurities, but it still bothers me when he’s involved. Sometimes, when they fight, she’ll block him for a few weeks, which provides me some relief, but soon enough, they start talking again. Recently, she told me she would be going out with him, which made me uncomfortable. I also went out with my female best friend around the same time, so I felt like it wasn’t right to stop her from doing the same, yet my mind raced with thoughts like, "Are they in a relationship? Am I being cheated on?" I tried to manage my anxiety, but it’s been hard. To get some clarity, I asked her friends about her past with him. Some said they were in a relationship for a couple of years before breaking up, while others weren’t sure. She explained that in their friend group, she and her guy best friend are the only two who are not in relationships, and that people would assume they were a couple if they hung out together. I also read through her recent chats with him, and they seemed like regular conversations, not inappropriate at all. But now, I’m unsure of what to believe. To add to my discomfort, she went out with some friends recently, including a guy who has a toxic past with her best friend. She values that friendship, but I’ve never been comfortable with their dynamic. Again, I didn’t express my discomfort because I feared being overly possessive. Eventually, I opened up to her, sharing all my concerns and insecurities. She reassured me that she only loves me, and that she has no romantic feelings for her ex. I want to believe her, but the past still haunts me. I can’t seem to fully trust her anymore. We had a heated conversation, and out of frustration, I mentioned breaking up. She was devastated and cried, saying she never thought I would want to leave her over this issue. She said if breaking up made me happy, she would leave. That moment made me feel like a bad person. I love her deeply, but the trust issues still linger. Later, she texted me saying she no longer believes the relationship will work because I’ve lost trust in her. She said, “You don’t believe me, and if you’ve given up on us, I guess we’re done.” That text left me feeling lost and alone. I don’t have anyone else close to talk to, not even my female best friend, so I’ve been leaning on my girlfriend. I asked her not to give up on me, and she responded, “I haven’t given up on you, but you’ve given up on us. I love you, and I just want to stay with you.” She then asked me if I wanted to stay or leave, explaining that if I left, it would make her very unhappy. Now I’m unsure what to do. I love her, but the doubts and anxiety are overwhelming. I’m afraid of being the one to ruin her friendships, especially since she values her guy best friend and the people close to her. Both our families know each other well, and we work together in the same office, so breaking up would lead to an awkward situation. I’m emotionally drained and confused about what to do. I don’t know whether to trust her and try to move forward or to focus on the things I’ve heard about her past. If I choose to stay, rebuilding trust and setting clear boundaries seems necessary, but I’m not sure what those boundaries should be. Breaking up would also be difficult, given the social and work-related complications. I really need some advice on how to handle this situation.1316
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